BTW - is only days away. I am so excited about returning to Wisteria and even more excited about seeing all of the great gents that are there. I still dread the 11 or so hour drive to Ohio but once I am there all is well and the trip forgotten. I think that it is funny that I was SO afraid of going the first year and I still get minor butterflies now ..I have met some of the most amazing men at BTW. Given my past and my heterophobia (of str8 men) forming any kind of bond with men is a huge thing for me. I tend to stay with the Ladies. I feel more in tune and safer. I would have never thought that I would survive a week with nothing but guys around. What makes it even better is that there is really no bitchiness. Atl east in that vicious club kind of way. I have formed some very meaningful bonds and BTW even helped me gain the courage to take W1.
Meade - It seems that some of the Meade that I made has decide to be sparkling and some has decided that it doesnt want to stay corked. We have now had 2 bottles explode all over the kitchen and one I opened because it was close to opening itself today. I really need to rack it better next time. I know it is because there was still a little yeast remaining in the bottles.
Vacation - I just got back from Cancun!! I had a great time. The ocean was gorgeous and I walked the shore 2 days singing to Yemaya and spent some time meditating with the Ocean crashing against the rocky coast in front of me. An odd occurrence was that I had very VERY vivid dreams two nights in a row that a person (Woman) was standing over my bed. She had a bone white face and long stringy almost wet hair. The first evening I walk up and swung at her. The second night I woke my roommates up because I screamed. I the image was remarkably realistic.
On another note I talked to Eva about this odd guilt that I have about going on vacation. Is it strange that I feel bad that I get to go to Cancun and I know so many other people who arent able to take any vacations at all. I think about people I work with who have lost there second or even there primary jobs. Others who have been out of work for months and months and worry about paying bills and I get to shoot tequila in a pool by the sea. What does it say about me? BLAH
Work - Easily summed up by saying it is crazy. Now that we take EBT/Food Stamps things are nuts. We have members who have to put back complete carriages of food because they cant seem to add. I really dont know what someone needs 800 dollars a month in food stamps for. I am a rather liberal person but I have had some serious issues with what I see coming through our stores now. We are down 3 Managers and my schedule sucks ass.
Ya well I think I have typed enough for this check in and I have a Full Moon Meditation to take care off.
Bye now, off to work.
As of late I seem to be nudged in the area of Service and Priesthood. For those who know me in my outward life..the one of the 9-5 you might not expect this but... From the age of like 8 I have imagined what it would be like to be a Priest. Admittedly not the cloistered Priest of the Christian Church but one that serves the Gods..or God none the less. I have thought about what it would be like to live a life in quite meditation. Away from the world at of cars ,smog and 2 a.m. alarm calls. One that allows me to spend hours walking among the Green World. The place were I see or better yet feel the deepest connection with the Divine. A life that permits me to weave spell or pray to help and heal those that come to me and lately I seem to be drawing cards in lots of random places that seem to tell me this is were I need to be. What I need to be doing..How do I integrate it into my life know? How do I pay rent, electric, water, insurance and still serve the Gods the way I feel I should be?
How do I make space and time to build my Inner Temple, strengthen my Witch Fire and still work or be able to do the things I need to do? That seems to be the question over the last 3 months...any suggestions?
This passing Full Moon I took my usually time out to do a meditation that specifically related to the Full Moon in all her beauty and it was a good meditation. Over the past few months as part of an Apprenticeship I have been participating in I have had the assignment to do extended meditations during times of Power. Holy days...Full Moons...Dark Moons... Equinox and Solstice. The last few Full Moon Meditations I have found that I have been rather distracted. I have had to assign a task to my Inner voice over the time spent to chant the word Luna over and over in order to concentrate on the meditation. This time things went smoother. I counted down into my meditative state and immediately saw the Moon full in the dark sky before me. Yellowy white, glowing and floating in a dark violet sky. Her light shown down on a patch of Earth that was Circular in shape and when I watch for a bit the "Dancing Lady" appeared before me. She glided from side to side across the Circle. Dancing to a music that I could not hear. She spun and twirled as graceful as a leaf in the wind. Behind her I felt a steady beat. Not a beat of drums or bass but almost that of the heart beating in my chest. As I focused on the beat I saw an older women appear at the edge of the Circle draped in all black. Robed she also danced. Her dance was more primal. Her feet rising and falling on the ground echoing the beat of my heart. You could feel the power in each step. Dark Mother...tapping out the passage of time with her soles. She seemed to be beyond it, yet guiding it. After my eyes moved from White Lady to Black I slowly began to take notice of a 3rd Women in my presence. She was clad from head to toe in Robes of red. Scarlet and vibrating she also joined the dance between the to. Her moves as graceful as the Dancing Ladies but more precise. As thought out and intentional as the Lady in Black but more fluid and a bit less collected. I watched them weave and flow intertwining and gliding for what seemed like hours. Not a word Spoken. No sound made. Only the dance, simple and true. The beat of my heart leading the steps or being led.
Your result for The Kink Spectrum Analysis Test...
Green (530 nm)
You scored 43% self-confidence and 38% bandwidth!
Not bad! You're probably not willing to try everything, but you have quite a few kinks. Or you strongly prefer one side of the fence. Look for another Green, or a Blue if you feel adventurous. Reds may be okay as well if they share one or two of your likings (see below). But stay away from Ultraviolets unless you want to radically spice up your sex life. You've been warned.
But I promised you a more detailed analysis, so here it is. Note that most scales are twofold: There are separate values for giving (active) and receiving (passive). If you scored high on one of them, you should look for a partner who scored high on the other. If you scored high on both of them, go for someone who is similar (or for multiple partners if you're into that). If you scored low on both, this probably is not your kind of kink.
You scored 72% giving and 23% receiving on oral.
You scored 67% giving and 70% receiving on anal.
You scored 31% giving and 0% receiving on bondage.
You scored 26% giving and 33% receiving on humiliation.
You scored 33% giving and 30% receiving on pain.
You scored 21% dominance and 33% submission.
You scored 42% voyeurism and 10% exhibitionism.
Besides that, you're 19% into fetishism and 36% polysexual (i.e. interested in sex with multiple partners, whether at the same time or not). You'll probably want a partner who is similar, whether you scored high or low in these categories.
Finally, you scored 28% on autoerotic - a scale that measures your ability and/or willingness to have kinky fun without a partner. It's not exactly a matching criterion, but it's good for you if your score is high. Keep it up!
So know I am growing :
Lettuce - Mix
St. John's Wart
Sunflowers 3 kinds
I think I remembered them all.
I am rather excited. I think I have started late again but I am hoping for the best. I talk to them and Reiki them and water them. I love them...lol
Thats all. Had to share!!
a.k.a. Roxy Codone
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You are Athena!
Born from the head of Zeus himself, this goddess is the most respected and capable of all the goddesses. Like this goddess of defensive warfare, crafts and wisdom, you are courageous as a warrior, cunning as a fox, and wise beyond your years. You do not try to be a leader, but you are one merely because you have the raw material that renders admiration and followers. Though you may not know it...you have the world at your feet. But since you are wise, you will not allow this newfound knowledge to go to your head.
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That night we shopped picked up groceries and played this very very ...did I say VERY complicated game called Settlers of Catan. It made my head hurt and but I won. The victory was really Russel's.
Saturday - Evening was Tradewinds great club. We ran into Quill and Mickey I was rather surprised. I had a blast dancing and chatting. One doesnt expect to be asked about the Magickal Correspondences related to Glass in the middle of a Leather store at a Gay Bar. I sadly only got hit on by a 150 year old man but in the end the evening was fun.
Sunday- Lots of and lots of walking, shopping, and HOTT HOTT guys. I am dont know were columbus got all the gay but I am not complaing a single bit. I had run out of saliva half an hour after walking arround. Luckily we found a Smoothie shop who servings were in jugs. I almost died when Gregory ordered Mediums and the handed them a bucket of Smoothie. The evening was a wonderful Ham dinner and a movie. "What the bleed do we know?" I think I got the title right. Now, if you have never heard of Quantum Science or are not a person who lives a magickal life I would say that this movie will seriously fuck with your head. Even the 4 of us had a few Eureka moments. I would recommend a glass of wine with the movie in order to not spin out of control.
Monday - Not over yet. I have dont absolutely nada. Drove John to work and am sitting on my ass vegging. I wanted to go to Ikea but it is practically a state way. Grrrr.
With all of that being said I still have lots to do. More peeps to get in touch with and I shall say ta ta for now. Call me if you wanna do something...